Quite a few times in my childhood and at different stations in my life I was ashamed of my Persians, I heard the phrase stingy prizes quite a few times in my childhood. So, it hit me, I was shrinking all over and I wanted to be like everyone else, neither stingy nor Persian. Without any labeling, I wanted to belong. And to be like everyone else, like the "good guys", in some places I took care to hide what made me feel different.